Here I sit, not able to sleep, feelings of butterflies in my stomach. Feels just like the night before my first day of school, only it’s not my first day of school, it’s Miss A’s. Tomorrow Miss A starts her very first day of Kindergarten, and I am the one, losing sleep, having mixed emotions.
I am thankful that God made me her mommy, and appreciative of all the time we’ve had to spend together, just her and I for several years. {I know I sound like she’s going off to college!} I’m so proud of her for being such a big girl, so smart, funny, and an awesome buddy, and I am truly going to miss her while she’s in school, {at least most of the time}.
I keep telling myself, and I really do believe that elementary school will be good for Miss A and allow her to learn even more, {my little sponge}, be even more independent from mom {and dad}, have a break from arguing over toys with sissy, and be in an awesome atmosphere that will allow her to grow mentally, physically, socially, spiritually, and emotionally. I know these things, but as her mom my mind keeps thinking, “Kindergarten, it’s the beginning to the end.”
What does that mean?? Some part of me feels like her starting school will just perpetuate the years rapidly flipping past me forwarding to when she graduates from high school or even more-so, college. But I try to look at the awesome blessings I’ve had, especially by being able to stay at home. I have had the privilege to be with her for 99.75% of her life, which has been a lot of work every step of the way, but something I wanted to do with all my heart, and God provided a way with my husband’s hard work and job opportunities. I tell everyone I know, being a mom is the hardest, most rewarding job I have EVER had, and it’s so true, I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
So if being able to be mommy first in my girls lives means that I’m a sobbing mess the night before they start Kindergarten, then I guess so be it. I’ll get over it, continue to enjoy our moments and watch Miss A grow and flourish, my little Kindergartener, but for now pass the tissues please!!
Thanks for letting me vent a little. I would love to hear from you, your experiences with Kindergarten.
How did you deal with your child’s first day of Kindergarten? Does it get better??
I still have two years before Oscar starts Kindergarten but I am already a mess. How do they grow up so fast?! Hang in there mama.
My 4 yo just started pre-schoool this year. I must say it is a nice break to have him out of the house for 5 hours a day twice a week, but boy do I miss him. I can’t believe how quickly they grow up. My 2 yo is already telling me he wants to go to school as well!